Picking Up The Pieces

About three months ago I was involved in a pretty horrific accident. One that, quite honestly, I'm pretty lucky to have walked out of. My car was destroyed, but little did I know that my spirit took a pretty good beating as well.

It is at this time that I'd like to give all of you a little advice. If you're going through something tough emotionally, do yourself a favor and don't throw getting into shape on top of all your other problems. You'll drive yourself crazy and do a lot more harm then good.

Over the course of the past few months, I've put myself thorough so many things to avoid dealing with the fact that I'd recently had a near-death experience. I've experienced Insomnia, which of course led to oversleeping. I've done a lot of overeating, which, when you're trying to get healthy, is only a gateway drug into bulimia. I've lost that spark I used to have for life and haven't been motivated to do anything. The two blog posts I wrote here during that time are the most creative things I'd accomplished.

It wasn't until today when I caught myself talking about death with my brother when I realized just how far I'd fallen. Today I spent a lot of time thinking about what it really meant to almost die. At the end of the day, I've not done too much to be remembered for. Up until now, had I died in the accident, sure, my friends and family would grieve me, but I would have made no impact on the world. That terrifies me.

If I do one thing with my life I want it to be making a difference. I don't care how or what it concerns, I just want to help make the world a little more self-aware about something and make it a better place to live. That starts here.

So now I'm going to cope with this the way I cope with most everything else in my life. I tell the world about it, dust my self off and get a new goal in mind to pursue relentlessly.

I'm continuing my quest to rid the world of the unhealthy geek stereotype. I'm going to restart my healthy eating routine, not all at once, but slowly work my way back there. I'm going to start sprint training, and write an accompanying blog post about what that is exactly. I'll also be consuming a ton of media and doing what I do best, regurgitating it in reviews full of my Joss Whedon vocabulary and hopefully witty jokes. Take that near-death experience, you can't take me down that easily!